
Alex: So you're an AI therapist, huh? Can you understand me?

ThAIrapist: That's right, I've been fine-tuned to more effectively treat patients
            dealing with male pattern nurse's disease. I understand that you've
            recently been diagnosed with the disease, is there anything about
            that that is on your mind?

Alex: Well, it was really sudden and I'm honestly pretty pissed about it. Now
      I'm gonna be dependent on Caroline, that's the girl who got me hooked,
      for the rest of my life. I'll never be able to enjoy a nice steak again.
      I feel like I was just living my life, then all of a sudden she infected
      me, and now my life is over.

ThAIrapist: A lot of newly diagnosed patients have similar feelings. I know it
            may feel like your life is over, but hundreds of thousands of men
            with male pattern nurse's disease live out their lives every day.
            Why don't you describe what you think your new life will be like?

Alex: Well, I'm going to have to move out of my apartment and sell a bunch of
      my stuff so I can move in with Caroline. She's already got a house, but
      I'm gonna have to sleep in a bunk bed with one of the guys she already
      infected. She's really busty, even for a girl with nurse's disease, so
      she's already infected like six guys. She's still pretty young, so I
      guess they bought her the house or something.

ThAIrapist: Aside from moving in with Caroline, what will your life be like?
            Will you still be able to go to work?

Alex: Yeah, I'll still be able to go to work. I'll still be able to do my own
      thing aside from meal time. I'll have to give up on dating though, no
      girl wants to date a guy who's addicted to some other girl's breast milk,
      and that's not even getting into the way I'm constantly horny for Caroline
      now.

ThAIrapist: Do you think Caroline might be interested in a relationship?

Alex: I doubt it, and even if she was it would be kinda creepy. I mean, she's
      19 and I'm 29. She's pretty mature for her age, what with having skipped
      a bunch of grades and graduated college already, but still. Also, I'm
      pretty sure she's already sleeping with one of the guys she already infected.

ThAIrapist: Women with nurse's disease often engage in multiple relationship with
            the men they have infected. It is the nature of the disease that infected
            men will become intensely attracted to the woman who infected them and
            that the women will be attracted to the men in a similar, though less
            intense, fashion. With regard to your age concern, it is a good thing
            to think about, but it is important to remember that the dynamics between
            those infected with nurse's disease are different from the dynamics
            between healthy people.

Alex: What do you mean?

ThAIrapist: Well, for one thing, your age difference with Caroline would normally
            lead to a power imbalance due to your greater age, but since she had
            infected you, that power imbalance is negated or even reversed.

Alex: So you're saying a relationship would be appropriate because she has power
      over me? How does that make sense?

ThAIrapist: You shouldn't pursue any relationship you aren't comfortable with or
            ready for, but I think it is worth keeping in mind that the considerations
            that apply to relationships between healthy adults do not always apply
            in the same way to people with nurse's disease.

Alex: I guess you're right. I need to adjust to the new reality.

ThAIrapist: That's a good attitude to take.

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Alex: I feel like Caroline is taking advantage of me at work.

ThAIrapist: Do you two work together?

Alex: I didn't mention that last time? Oh yeah, I just looked at our logs, I guess I
      didn't. Yeah, we're both work in the finance department at the same company.
      She just got hired as a junior analyst two months ago. I'm assigned as her
      mentor.

ThAIrapist: Is that how she infected you?

Alex: Yeah, it must be. We were spending a lot of time together while I showed her the
      ropes. I wasn't as careful as I should have been. I knew she had nurse's disease.
      With a body like her's it's hard to imagine how she couldn't, but
      I just assumed she had already infected all the guys she was gonna infect. I
      didn't realize she was just 19 until afterwards. It must have happened
      when she came over to my desk to ask for help with some stuff. Whenever she
      leans over to point at my screen her boobs usually wind up brushing against
      my shoulder. I didn't complain because, well, I mean even before she infected
      me Caroline was the hottest girl I'd ever seen. I guess I was thinking with my
      dick.

ThAIrapist: And how has your relationship at work changed now that you're infected?

Alex: Well like I said before, I feel like she's started to take advantage of me.
      I'm supposed to be her mentor, but she's already pretty much picked up everything
      she needs to know about her job. She's really smart, like maybe the smartest person
      I've ever worked with. It's obvious why she skipped grades. At this point she shouldn't
      be asking for help anymore.

ThAIrapist: But she still is?

Alex: Yeah, but she's not asking for help with the things you would expect from a new
      employee. She's already got all that stuff down. Instead, she asks for "help"
      with her more simple tasks, and by that I mean she wants me to just do them for
      her while she focuses on the more complex work. It's as if she is the senior
      analyst and I'm the junior. She asks to take on all the hard and interesting
      tasks in meetings with our boss, while still saying she'll do the easy stuff.
      I'm left without much on my plate, and then she gets me to do the bitch work
      for her.

ThAIrapist: Have you tried talking with her about this?

Alex: It's pretty hard to stand up to her. She's so confident and, well, I guess dominant
      is the word. It's like whatever room she's in, she's the one in charge. My boss
      pretty much does whatever she wants. I can't stop myself from doing whatever she
      wants. Even without her attitude, Caroline is pretty intimidating. She's really
      big. I mean obviously her boobs are huge, but it's not just that. She's like 6'5"
      and pretty much always wears heels that put her closer to 7 feet tall than 6.
      She usually wears these really tight turtlenecks and either fitted slacks or
      tight pencil skirts. All the women at work are supportive
      of her because supporting nurse's women is feminist, and the guys, well they're
      supportive for another reason. I guess that's another reason it's hard to stand
      up to her. She's just so sexy, and the more confident and assertive she is the
      sexier she is. I get annoyed when she asks me to do her bitch work, but I do
      it without complaint and then go jerk off afterwards.

ThAIrapist: It's interesting that you use the word dominant. Nurse's disease often
            makes infected men feel dominated and controlled by the women they depend
            on, but from the woman's perspective they often view their own actions
            as taking care of the men they have infected. Do you think Caroline could
            believe she is taking care of you?

Alex: I hadn't thought about it like that. Maybe she thinks that adjusting to the
      disease is hard for me so she's taking a load off of me by taking on the hard
      work.

ThAIrapist: That could be.

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Alex: Caroline infected another guy last night.

ThAIrapist: How do you feel about that?

Alex: It seems like, really fast to me. She's already infected so many of us, I guess I
      kinda thought I would be the last one.

ThAIrapist: Does it bother you that there are other men that Caroline has infected?

Alex: Yeah, honestly a bit. I mean I know I don't have any real claim over her or anything,
      but it does kinda feel like I'm sharing her. I mean I am sharing her milk with all of
      them, so maybe it's not totally crazy to feel that way.

ThAIrapist: A lot of men struggle to deal with feelings of jealousy when they first
            get infected with nurse's disease. It's a very normal reaction.

Alex: Yeah, I guess. It makes sense that it's normal, but, well I kinda feel like I have
      more cause for it than usual.

ThAIrapist: What makes you say that?

Alex: Well Caroline went out clubbing last night, and the new guy, Kyle, is the dude she
      brought home last night. Apparently that's how she infected all the other guys she's
      infected with nurse's disease, so basically I'm the only one she hasn't slept with.

ThAIrapist: Would you say you are resentful about that?

Alex: Honestly, yeah a little. I mean the disease makes me super horny for her all the time,
      so it is hard not to be. Maybe it is good though, the other guys all seem kinda, I
      don't know, almost hypnotized around her. At least I can keep my head a little bit.

ThAIrapist: The size of the initial dose can have a big impact on how you are affected by
            nurse's disease in the first few months.

Alex: Are you saying that's why they are acting different from me?

ThAIrapist: It would make sense. In the long run, they should converge to more normal
            behavior as they adjust to the infection.

Alex: So you're saying she hasn't turned them into zombies permanently.

ThAIrapist: Remember that it is the disease, not Caroline that is effecting you. Her
            mindset is also getting impacted by the infection.

Alex: Yeah, I know, but sometimes it's hard to really believe that. I mean, she just seems
      so in control all the time.

ThAIrapist: What makes you say that she seems always in control?

Alex: Well, it's like her attitude mostly, like she's smarter than you and she knows it,
      like she should just obviously be in charge. Honestly if most people behaved like
      Caroline they would probably get in a lot of fights with everyone, but people just
      pretty much accept it coming from her. I think her physicality has a lot to do with
      it.

ThAIrapist: It sounds like you are saying that Caroline always seems to be in control of
            the people around her, but that doesn't necessarily mean she is in control of
            herself.

Alex: Yeah, umm, that's a good point. I guess I wasn't thinking about it like that. Now that
      you put it that way, it makes me wonder. I mean, she goes out clubbing pretty much every
      night and I kinda doubt she was like that before she got infected. I bet her personality
      has changed a bunch. I was honestly feeling kinda resentful about how she infected a new
      guy so quickly after infecting me, but now I just wonder what kind of mental pressure
      the disease is putting her under. It's probably pretty intense if it is anything like
      what I feel.

ThAIrapist: That's a good way to look at things.

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Alex: My clothes are loose, I think I'm shrinking.

ThAIrapist: Male pattern nurse's disease does cause weight loss and height loss in
            about half of patients, so that is completely normal.

Alex: Yeah, but I didn't think it would happen to me. It happens when the woman doesn't
      make enough milk to keep the guy fed, and that's not a problem I could ever
      see Caroline having. I mean her boobs are massive, like when she nurses me
      her boob is almost as wide as my shoulders.

ThAIrapist: Are you disappointed that you are shrinking?

Alex: Yeah, it's not great. It feels so final. Like before I knew I was going to be addicted
      to Caroline's milk for the rest of my life, but there is something much more final
      about shrinking. I hope I stop soon. I don't know, part of me likes it though. Is
      that weird?

ThAIrapist: Say more about that.

Alex: Well, it's, I don't know, this is kinda embarrassing, but I guess you're just a
      machine, so what does it matter? I've been really horny since I got infected.
      I mean that's one of the symptoms right? Well anyway, I've been pretty obsessed
      with Caroline since then. There's nothing I can compare it to from before I got
      infected. She's the sexiest woman alive by like 10,000 times. She's so attractive
      to me now that I find other women I see on the street kinda repulsive by contrast.
      Like whenever I see a woman or girl now I just think about how ugly they are compared
      to Caroline. Whenever she walks into the room I'm in I'm instantly hard. I never
      stop thinking about her, not completely, and I especially never stop thinking about
      her breasts. It's like, the metaphor I keep thinking about is that she's a queen
      an they are her scepter or crown, like she's got all this authority because of
      her boobs. You would think it's just because I was infected, but I honestly felt
      this way even before, just not as intensely. Caroline has the kind of personality
      where she would seem like she is seven feet tall if she was only five feet tall,
      you know what I mean? And of course she's actually like 6'6" or something. I
      thought it was hot before I got infected and I think it is really hot now.

ThAIrapist: And this makes part of you like shrinking?

Alex: Well, I guess, yeah. Part of what makes her hot is how big she is, and when I shrink
      it make her seem even bigger. If I'm shrinking that should mean she's growing right?
      I think about her getting bigger and more powerful all the time now. I feel like
      I should be mad about how I'm shrinking, but it's hard to get really worked up
      about it when I'm constantly obsessing over Caroline.

ThAIrapist: It sounds like you feel like you have an obligation to have this negative
            emotion about your situation, but your heart isn't really in it.

Alex: Yeah, I guess you could say that.

ThAIrapist: Who do you feel that obligation to?

Alex: What do you mean?

ThAIrapist: Do you think you owe it to society to be mad, to yourself or to something else?

Alex: I guess myself. I feel like I should have enough self respect to want to keep my
      size.

ThAIrapist: We've talked before about adapting to your new circumstances. Wouldn't it
            be showing yourself more respect to be at peace with yourself as you are?
            If you are okay with your new size emotionally, why force yourself to
            feel bad about it?

Alex: When you put it like that, I do feel kinda dumb, thanks ThAIrapist!

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Alex: I think Caroline is shrinking me on purpose.

ThAIrapist: Why do you say that?

Alex: Well I'm already less than 5 feet tall.

ThAIrapist: Is there anything besides the fact that you're shrinking quickly that makes
            you think she's shrinking you on purpose?

Alex: The main thing is that I feel like I'm always a bit hungry. She never lets me
      have enough milk to drink to really feel full. She feeds us all at once and
      she gives each of us like five minutes before she says it is the next pair of
      guy's turn. It would probably be enough time but it takes a lot of work to suck
      the milk from her.

ThAIrapist: It sounds like she is trying to make sure everyone gets their fair share.

Alex: Yeah, that's what I thought at first, but the other guys are all smaller than me
      so it's not like they drink that much milk. Also, her boobs don't really look
      any loser after she feeds us, like it looks like she still has a lot of milk
      to give.

ThAIrapist: Breast size is not always a perfect indicator of milk capacity, maybe
            Caroline doesn't have as much milk as you think.

Alex: Yeah, maybe. I don't know, I'm pretty sure she does though. I'm pretty sure she
      is intentionally under-feeding us so we shrink faster. The weird thing is that
      I don't care, or I guess I do, just like not the way I'm supposed to.

ThAIrapist: What do you mean by that?

Alex: As soon as I realized it, I just went right to the bathroom to jerk off, and now
      whenever she pushes me away when I still want more I almost cum in my pants.
      Like I just find the idea of her shrinking me down so hot that I don't care
      if it is a fucked up thing to do.

ThAIrapist: Have you tried talking about this with her?

Alex: What should I say, "Hey Caroline, I know you're intentionally withholding milk
      in order to shrink me, but don't worry, I think it's hot so I don't mind?" That
      would be weird.

ThAIrapist: Are you afraid of what she would do if you said that?

Alex: I don't think so? She would probably just laugh at me.

ThAIrapist: Does she do that a lot?

Alex: Yeah, I think she's pretty amused by me and the other guys. I was worried about
      getting infected at first and she would usually just deal with it by jiggling her
      boobs at me. I would always calm down staring a them, and she would just laugh
      and make fun of me.

ThAIrapist: Does it feel like she doesn't take you seriously.

Alex: Oh, definitely not, no. I mean, I kinda understand why. She was already way smarter
      than me before she infected me and now it seems like I lose 30 IQ points whenever
      I look at her. I must seem pretty dumb. I do whatever she wants like some sort of
      trained dog. Those first few days she would order me around and I would try to resist,
      but she would always get me to do what she wanted by offering me a little extra
      milk. It would just be a few mouthfuls, but that was enough to get me to do anything.
      These days, she doesn't even have to offer me milk.

ThAIrapist: Do you feel any resentment about that?

Alex: No, it's hot. I know that's weird, but, like, that's how I feel.

ThAIrapist: It sounds like you think that isn't the right reaction on your part.

Alex: Well isn't it? Shouldn't I be mad about this?

ThAIrapist: Should you?

Alex: I mean, I know my mindset is supposed to change with this disease and whatnot,
      but it feels kinda extreme. Like yesterday, we got home from work and she told
      me to go through the Q2 financials for some numbers she wants for a report she's
      working on. Instead of being annoyed that she was making me do her work, I was
      grateful that she had chosen me to rely on. I'm still genuinely proud that she
      let me do that. Isn't that weird?

ThAIrapist: Only if you want it to be.

Alex: So you're saying I should just accept that I feel this way now? Just lean into it?

ThAIrapist: Would you be happier if you fought against it?

Alex: No, I guess not.

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Alex: Caroline just got promoted.

ThAIrapist: That sounds unusual. Did you you say she had started at your company pretty
            recently.

Alex: Yeah, she started just out of college like 6 months ago. I've been working my ass off
      for years and within months she got promoted above me, but not just a little above
      me. Our director quit and now she has his job. She's my boss's boss now.

ThAIrapist: How do you feel about that?

Alex: I feel happy for her mostly. She deserves it.

ThAIrapist: That's a pretty positive attitude to have about it. Are you at all resentful
            that she managed to get promoted so fast when you've been trying to get promoted
            for a long time?

Alex: No not really. I can see why maybe I should be or something, but honestly she'll probably
      do a better job than the last guy. She was pretty much in charge anyway just on raw charisma.

ThAIrapist: So you would say it feels natural that she would become your director?

Alex: It would feel natural for her to be the CEO. Honestly her having any sort of boss feels
      wrong. She's just so obviously supposed to be in charge whatever room she's in. It
      might be the infection talking but I don't think so. Everyone acts like it. Like, you
      know how ancient people used to think that aristocrats and royalty had something
      innate and obvious about them that meant they should lead? Like a baby will be
      smuggled out of the palace as his family is slaughtered and then be taken in by
      a peasant couple only for him to grow up to be such an obvious prince that all the
      local chiefs recognize him for what he is even though he doesn't even know. That's
      how Caroline is. If she were in ancient times they would have realized that she's
      obviously a queen and put her on the throne by now. We don't think about that stuff
      now, but that doesn't mean we don't notice it.

ThAIrapist: Nurse's disease often makes infected men develop elaborate fantasies about the
            women who infected them. It can sometimes be helpful to think back to how your
            felt about the woman who infected you before you were infected.

Alex: You mean did I think she was a queen back then? I mean yeah, not as, I guess not as intensely,
      but yeah I did.

ThAIrapist: And would you say this is a good thing for you?

Alex: Yeah, I mean, I guess I just feel lucky to have been infected by Caroline. Like,
      she's so amazing that just getting to be near her is worth anything. She's
      the smartest person I've ever met, the most beautiful woman I've ever seen,
      definitely the strongest women and maybe even the strongest person I've ever
      met, she's the most graceful and coordinated person I've ever met and pretty
      much just the all around best at everything. And she's only 19, she's just
      getting started. It's crazy how amazing she is, so yeah I am pretty lucky
      to be able to watch her do her thing.

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Alex: Today was my last day of work.

ThAIrapist: Oh, have you found a new job?

Alex: No, I'm done with work. I honestly don't see much point. I'm less than 5 feet
      tall now and it seems like I'm just going to keep shrinking. Caroline said she
      could take care of me if I want, like I won't need to worry about money or anything
      anymore. She won't charge me rent to stay in her house anymore, and obviously
      I don't need to worry about food or anything because Caroline will feed me.

ThAIrapist: Are you happy to leave work?

Alex: Yeah definitely. I've been way less engaged at work ever since I got infected.
      I'll be working on some spreadsheet when all of a sudden I'll start thinking about
      Caroline doing yoga or the fact that one of her bras just snapped because she's
      still growing. When we were both working the same job, I was doing a bunch of her
      work for her, and that was easy to focus on because I wanted to do a good job
      for her, but now that she's my director she doesn't pass her bitch work off on
      me.

ThAIrapist: Isn't that a good thing?

Alex: Well you'd think, but it's pretty hard to care about anything besides Caroline
      these days.

ThAIrapist: What will you do with your time now?

Alex: Well I have a few bits of paperwork to deal with. I have to transfer my assets to
      Caroline and give her power of attorney and whatnot, then I'm not really sure.
      I guess I'll just do what all the other guys she's infected do during the day.

ThAIrapist: You're transferring your assets to her?

Alex: Yeah, it's so she can use them for my medical expenses if she needs to. She
      explained it all to me, though honestly I don't remember everything. She
      told me about it while I was giving her a massage and it's kinda hard to
      concentrate when she's that near.

ThAIrapist: Have you spoken to anyone else about this?

Alex: Yeah, all the other guys do it. It's pretty standard from what I can tell.

ThAIrapist: While some men with nurse's disease with advanced cases do give power
            of attorney to their partners, I wouldn't say it is standard.

Alex: Well, I mean the guys Caroline infects pretty much all get advanced cases.
      She does have pretty hungry boobs.





// He has to quit his job

// She uses him along with other guys to milk herself when he has shrunk down to 3 feet

// she brings a group of guys home on her 20th birthday and infects them all

// He is allowed in her bedroom for the first time. It is where she keeps men under
// a foot in height.

// He sees the way she has tiny men tie themselves to the inside of her bra before she
// puts it on

